So now that Alice has officially found her way at least part way up the rabbit hole. I wanted to give you an update on the last few weeks. Yes, I did put motherhood on my resume. It was serious and mainly listed my skill set which in all honesty I only have due to this crazy job I have held for the last 10 1/2 years called "mommyhood." I totally appreciate all the feedback and for those who voted a special thanks. I don't know if anything will become of the job I applied for. At this point I am not sure it matters. But I do know this. What I do has value! I think that is what I really needed to know.
I am not sure I ever really doubted my own value, nor did I desire to draw value from what I do. I know that I am wonderfully made by an amazingly creative and loving God. I know that my gifts and talents are unique and given purposefully and lovingly. So my self value was never really in doubt. [Either that or I am in complete denial!] But what I was doubting is the following: Are those valuable things to God and to me, valuable to anyone else? [Not approved by them, as I am not looking for approval!] Is what I do with those gifts, valuable to this world, to my church, to my neighborhood, to my family? [I am not done with this part of my discovery. I am still getting down to the knitty gritty of it all.] Is what I do with my time and energy valuable? [I don't want to gain my value from it, I only want to know... it is worth the time and energy?] Also, is there anything else I can be doing with my time and energy that is more valuable to this world than what I am currently doing? [This I must be careful with. As you moms know, we have to guard our family life like a bird guarding a nest.] So these were my questions and remain questions but as I search I finally feel somewhat closer to direction for this part of my life journey. I can see the light up the rabbit hole.
What a looking glass experience!! Reflections of self in a mirror which I then walk through into a new world. Only being cut by the glass on my way through seems a miracle, and while painful I now look back and see a new reflection of where I have been. Thus is this crazy race we run called life. All leading down a path that to us seems curvy and lost but to the Master is clear and planned. Thank you Lord that you are such an amazing guide!
You inspired me and challenged me to look at my own resume. I think that is such a great exercise for moms to do every once in a while. It makes us realize who we are in the broader sense than just our day to day now. I wrote my updated resume for a site I'm applying to write on, and I did include motherhood. Ever since your article and that choice, I've seen the idea on a few other sites for moms too. Seems we're all thinking along these lines! :)
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